I'm interested in folks who are not a full out TS, but are not just a guy who wears dresses either. How do you think about your identity, and how do you describe it to others?
I know a lot of folks say, I am just me. If that works for you, that's great. But I realized that for me, not having a clear understanding of my identity made it harder to reach out to others in social situations. I have been fully out for 5 years. I dress very femme, including at work.
I called myself gender fluid, but I realize I didn't have a felt sense of what that was. I have a strong drive towards including both the make and female within myself, I have even had dreams when I was a physical bridge between the two.
But I am nor attracted to androgyny, this gray area between the two genders. I am a strong mix of feminine and masculine aspects. A friend of mine used the term "gender dynamic". That really feels like me.
I also realize that both in terms of dressing, and just how I am in the world, I am in a phase of strongly exploring the feminine. I have been wearing padded bras most of the time for the last 2 months. And it feels right. I think this femme phase is because I feel full permission to be my male aspects, and I am still freeing my inner woman.
In a phrase, I am gender dynamic in a femme exploration phase.
How about you?