So I have a question.
Twice recently I've been in a situation where I nearly outed myself. Last week I was in the store and saw a girl I used to work with (before transition). She was with her 4 or 5 year old son. She left work when she got pregnant and never came back. When I walked past, there was no hint that she recognized me. I thought about stopping and saying hello, but kept going. A few minutes later I saw her still there a few aisles over. I thought it would be kind of a rush to go talk to her and "reveal" myself. I intentionally made a point to walk past her again, but I still didn't say anything.
Then today I was at the hair salon getting my color touched up. My stylist asked another girl to wash me out while she finished up another client that she worked on while my color processed. As the girl washed me out, she mentioned how much she loved my long hair. I said, "You would be surprised how short it used to be." Her : "Shorter than mine?" (she has a chin length bob). Me: "Actually it was a clipper cut". Her:"Real edgy, huh?" Me: "No it was just more appropriate at the time." And the conversation moved on to other topics.
I find myself saying or doing things that could get me read or outed. I can't figure out why I seem to be doing this. Does anyone else do stuff like this? Any ideas why?