I think I'm generally a positive person which helped when facing transition.
However when it comes to myself I struggle to see anything good.
Today I popped into a shop to grab some lunch, as I am standing there removing the teabag for my takeaway tea there is a shop worker refilling the sugars etc who waits politely for me to finish.
As I'm about to leave she opens the door and starts to tell me what a lovely complexion I have.
All I could think was that she had time to clock me and felt the need to say something.
Like 'It's a Tranny, poor thing I'll say something nice'.
It could have been genuine and yet I instantly thought the worst, put my head down muttering a thanks as I couldn't get out quick enough.
Now I think about it one way or another my low self-esteem let me be almost rude to someone being kind.
It's so rare someone says something complimentary that when it does happen I can't help but think it's pity or something. I really need to have a talk with myself!