A few short months ago I was very close to living the american dream I started listening to Dave Ramsey paid off a bunch of debt me and my wife make pretty good money have a beautiful son my grandmother passed away and I received a nice inheritance and was planning on buying a home. My wife got pregnant and we are having a daughter oh great, Everything in life is falling into place.
Except the elephant in the room has finally made its voice heard and is kicking and screaming to get out.
Right now only my kids are keeping me here. I don't want any of this anymore. I feel like except for the kids I would trade everything to have a crappy apartment mediocre job but be myself everyday all day.
I don't know how much longer this lie can go on and yet I feel so pathetic I wish I could just die but the only thing that would hurt my family more than transition would be if I was not living anymore.
I hate it my wife tells me how I am such a good father and she is so glad my son has a good father as her father has never been really around or a part of her life.
Why couldn't I have figured this out 10 years ago or 20 years from now, recently every day is a struggle and I'm not sure how long I can continue to live like this