Feels like forever since I posted anything here but been on the low side...
Anyway, here's the thing! For some reason the last 2-3 years I've almost completely stopped dressing and I can't really say why! This really annoys my SO and she tries to push me into dressing more since she knows how good it makes me feel so she gave me some homework to try and put words on why I don't do it. I just thought I'd share it with you to see if it makes any sense at all
Basically I got it down to two words, afraid and stupid
So what do I mean with that, well I'm afraid that someone will suddenly drop by or walk by and see it (only my SO knows), afraid that it will escalate and I need to dress all the time, afraid that she won't dare to say when it's not ok and that it will affect our relation and so on...
The stupid part is that when I get dressed I just feel stupid... you know like when you drop something in a crowd and everyone looks at you, that kind of stupid, foolish maybe is a better word. I know I'll never pass and that shouldn't be important but it's still there. My SO always says I look pretty but somewhere deep down I'm afraid that she'll think I look foolish to...
So... does it make any sense at all?