Amazing Breakthrough
My wife has known about my CD'ing for about 12 years now. Unfortunately, I had never told her about this, and she found out by finding my stash. Like many others, I thought getting married and raising a family would make this thing I didn't really understand, go away.
Fast forward a few years... She's been hot and cold, mainly cold, over the past 6-7 years. She would start to accept it in a DADT form, then flip 180 degrees and hate me for it, then start warming up to it again.
Over the past 2 years, she has been recovering from thyroid cancer, which has changed both of our perspectives on life. In this time, she became more and more comfortable with me wearing panties and getting rid of my guy's underwear. But, she wasn't comfortable with anything, and communication has been difficult at best.
Over the past couple of months, our communication has been much more open and honest about this side of me, and it has made a huge difference.
About a week or two ago, she gave me the full green light to be myself as much as I needed to be when away from the house in the road. She just wants me to be honest with her, 100%, and doesn't want to be surprised by finding anything new. I told her that I had painted my toes, and bought some lingerie while on my trip last week, and slept in a nightie every night. She thanked me for being honest, and is happy that I can be myself.
We have not been this close, emotionally, in the entire time we've been married. She's even told me that I am a different person when I have a chance to be myself.
Today we were supposed to go get mani/pedis together, but she wasn't able to get out of the house today. She had asked me yesterday to take my polish off before, but we forgot to pick up any remover yesterday when we were out shopping. She told me this morning to go ahead and go without her, just so I could get my massage after the week of walking and on my feet 12 hours daily. Since we forgot the remover, she actually told me to just tell the girls at the salon that I lost a bet.
We talked about it a bit more, and I told her I'd like to get the thyroid awareness ribbon painted on my big toes, and she almost wept. She told me to go ahead and get whatever I wanted to have done, along with the ribbons. She even told me to get the ribbons on my thumbnails.
Aside from getting used to the pink base behind the ribbon on my big toes, she loves it and appreciates me doing this.
On the way back from the salon, I had to stop to pick some things for dinner. I wasn't thinking when I left the house earlier, and ended up leaving with my flip flops on instead of my sneakers. I had to own the nails in the stores, and all I ended up with is 4 compliments from complete strangers.
I am so happy, and my wife told me that she's seen the peace in my eyes, and will stand behind parts of my dressing no matter what. She just doesn't to see me completely done up, but nails and underdressing are perfectly okay.
I am in love!!!
Originally Posted by LisaKarenAZ
