I’ve been working on a writing project that is an interesting one that I would love to thank everyone here for the idea behind it.
I’m currently calling this writing project “Second Self Adviser”.
The premise behind this writing project is I’m exploring the psychological issues that Super Heroes could be dealing with. Especially those that have an alter ego.
Much like what some of us Ladies do with our lives as we transition. Which was where I got the inspiration for the story.
I’m also exploring other psych issues related to the genre, like the PTSD that can result from coming into their powers and so on.
Any way, I noticed that in this genre of story telling that the Heroes sometimes have to deal with their humanity.
For me, growing up I have never quite felt like I was a human being. Sometimes less than human, but all the time never quite human.
I’ve always felt like I had something wrong with me, yet every time I turned around I was being told that there was nothing wrong; very frustrating to grow up this way.
The other day I was shaving my legs and I suddenly wondered if I was shaving my legs because that was the feminine thing to do; or was I shaving my legs to rid myself of “The Bugs” I imagined were quite real on my skin. It wasn’t intense, but the thought was there.
This thought got me to thinking about GD and how much we might do because it is the Feminine thing to do, or is there something more insidious lacing our thoughts.
How many of us feel this way about themselves? I know that this is how I feel about myself in my case. But I was wondering how many others might feel this way.
Now, to make things interesting. A few weeks ago I had a small taste of feeling like a human being for the first time in my life and I have to say, I don’t want it to stop.
I was getting ready for work. I had just shaved and I was sitting on the edge on my bed. I had on my jeans for work, and only my bra. I was brushing my hair off to the left side of my head and I noticed how long my hair is, it barely touched my breast. I could also see the color I had on my toenails too.
I suddenly felt like a human being and that hunger to keep feeling that way has been with me and I have been busting my hump to hold onto that feeling.
I had another thought while thinking about all this so I can discus this with my Therapist in our next session.
Everyone experiences the same things differently. I was wondering if this is just how my mind experiences and defines my GD, and how many others out there might feel similar but not the same.