So brief update Came out to wife not happy
She found panties in wash made statment she wont tolerate my dressing
My sons found my "stuff" (Im honestly not as careless as this reads) I've explained myself to them individually and all seems ok.
I briefly spoke about my dressing to my wife and thought she was opening up to discussion.
Now my oldest son (17) has been amazing to talk too doesnt care what I do im his Dad and he loves me no matter what but it turns out my wife has opened up to him and said if I'm Gay or want to transition we are over.
She feels she may of wasted 20 years and would never of married me if she'd known from the start and said she wont talk to me about it because it makes it real .
Othewise our relationship seems fine but I feel its not healthy to ignore it but dont want disturb the hornets nest so to speak.
Just to be clear Im not gay I find the male form ugly and have never understood what attracts women.
And as far as transitioning is concerned I feel I have found me as I need to be just a little more dressing time would be good lol so no I wouldnt transition
Emma xx