So I was contacted this week about attending a diversity workshop being hosted by the Coast Guards east coast headquarters staff - the Officer coordinating the event has known about me for a while now, and she has been a wonderful advocate/source of support for me. Anyway, we discussed it and I routed a request to attend this week long conference presenting authentically. I drafted a pretty logical and sound justification memo and routed it up the chain of command yesterday.
This morning, I saw in my inbox that it has been endorsed by my chain of command and is making its way to Washington for final approval.
I cannot believe I am doing this. I am both excited and absolutely terrified at the same time.
So back to the title of this thread - there is NO WAY I would be doing this if my brain was calling the shots... I am able to recruit the assistance of my brain occasionally to assist, but whatever element of my being that is driving this transition does not listen to reason. The parts of my mind that like reason and rationality are pretty upset, but it's clear who's winning!!!
I'm going to go curl up in a ball now