Kaitlyn,
Obviously I'm talking from a personal perspective, I was self employed for thirty years as a photographer so there were daily compromises dealing with customers needs and trying to juggle a family life around unsociable hours . Sometimes happiness didn't come into the equation especially when I was being dragged in different directions mentally, life has never been 100% happy it's not in the real World. There are moments of happiness and enjoyment along with times of depression and despair. I've never said categorically that I'm not TS, I'm just not convinced that fulfilling those feelings will bring me peace of mind and happiness into my life, I will lose far more than the gains it offers.
Talking to TSs at my social group has only reinforced those thoughts , it's a very difficult trade off, so I live with my compromise , like I said , what I have now is probably as good as it gets.
Paola,
I came out to my wife twenty years ago, it's still difficult at times, Coming out only two weeks ago you may have to let the dust settle and the thoughts sink in.
I hope I don't come over as unhappy person despite it all my sense of humour gets me through, whatever label I should be wearing now I'm finally enjoying going out dressed and meeting other members of the TG community. It has been a great leveller, seeing people worse off than you and others who just don't care , chatting to them, sharing a drink and having a laugh but importantly no segregation , all are welcome.