I figured it was time for a progress report.
Each day more and more of my new normal expands and grows.
I am definitely becoming the woman I was always meant to be. And amazingly more and more people are seeing it and responding appropriately.
As I let me be me out in the public eye, and they respond like I feel like they should be responding to me, I begin to feel more and more like a person and not the creature I felt like most of my life.
I fully appreciate the little victories that come my way each and every day. I would say that the percentages of incorrect vs correct gendering is improving day by day.
Today for example, I took my youngest Nephew to the bank so he could help me out with something so I can take him up to Memphis on the back of my Motorcycle. While we were at the bank at the teller, we talked about how much he needed to take out in front of the teller.
When she handed him the cash; she said, "I included two tens because she said you needed ten dollars for gas." Nodding in my direction. I love my Nephew to death. He didn't react to what she said and carried on like it was the most natural thing in the world. I did the same thing and when we got out in the car, we celebrated that tiny little victory.
Now, I fully understand how people are and all; and I do live in a very conservative area. Central Mississippi to be exact. Yet, I seem to be having a very easy go of it at the moment.
This does make me feel a little guilty about my Transition. Because I then think about how hard of a time a lot of us have had it and are having it while living in areas that are supposed to be a lot more accepting of us.
Now please, do not get me wrong. I am not complaining about it in the least. I just can't help but to feel a little guilty because of how easy I seem to be having it at this time so far.
I will admit, this guilt does keep me on my toes and my eyes pealed for my own safety and well being. But, I'm beginning to learn to what extent members of my Family are willing to go to watch out for me just because I'm Family.
Back to my day with my youngest Nephew. We were talking about my Transition briefly in the car after the bank, and he told me that he has no problem with anyone as long as they do not have intent to do harm in any form. If they do try to hurt his Aunt, he will hunt them down and hurt them back.
When I heard him say that, he gave me the warm fuzzies inside.
That is just one part of what I'm learning about the people around me and how they see and view my Transition when it becomes required for them to learn of it and or I come out more and more.