I've been full-time a little over three years now. For the most part I'm doing really good. I've lost one very close fiend. All most lost my brother, but we are doing really well now. My wife and I are doing good. She has been very supportive of me and still see's the person she feel I love with.
Here's the thing we are going to my niece's wedding, it's in a neighboring state. My niece is very excepting and loving toward me. I don't know her fiancé family. My brother and sister in-laws have seemed to be more relaxed around me the last time we were up there. All the women I know that are going are wearing a dress, including my wife.
Today I was asking her, her opinion on some of the dresses I have. That's when she told me that I should wear a pant outfit that I have and not a dress. She tried to tell me that we haven't been up there that much sense I transitioned and we don't really know his family. So this way they can warm up to you. I sat there with tears in my eyes not saying anything. Then finally I said when you say things like that it hurts. She got defensive and in my eyes only made it worse.
I got the, I've been very tolerant of everything, you're being unfair. I said all the other women are wearing dresses, but they can't just see you a man wearing a dress, let's give them time to warm up to you. She said no that's not what I'm saying, then it kind of went a little more south on both of are parts.
I can't belive after three years and all I've work to achieve in my life. My self-esteem my dignity. And in one afternoon a person can make you feel like a freak. The thing that keeped me in my closet for 54 years. I have told her before that I'm not something that has to get used to. I'm a human being that is worth knowing. But all the self-esteem in the world doesn't ease the sting, when someone so close to you tells you your something that people have to get used to you.
I'm just finding a way to let this out to people that understand.
Thanks Janelle