Hi everyone,
At first, some background: I am a closeted crossdresser in a long term relationship (4 years) with my girlfriend.
A few days ago, my girlfriend showed me a video of a very androgynous fashion show where men were wearing leggings and heels.
Last night, we were out with my girlfriend. We had a dinner with a friend couple. On the way to the restaurant, passing in front of the window of a shop,
she showed me a coat she likes and asks me what I think about it. I was not fond of it and finally we ended ribbing each other on our fashion taste.
For fun ,she said she will offer me the clothes on the fashion I mentioned above as a punishment since I was so "manly". I said that I do not see myself as manly.
She said I was and that, for example, when her friend first met her boyfriend (i'm talking about the couple we were having diner with), the girl thought he was gay and that nobody could never think that about me.
It makes me remember about a discussion I have with my brother about some issues in our team. He said that I had to take in charge because I was a leader. I also said at this time that I was not. He said that I am and I have to do something.
That's the point, I never see myself as manly or as an alpha male. I'm an average guy who has hobbies and activities that most dudes have (except crossdressing of course).
I don't act macho but always consider women and take care of how they feel.
When I can, I try to help people and make things go in the right way for the common good but I never consider myself as a leader.
So two questions:
- Does anyone feel the same way and do not not understand the way people perceive us (I mean the gap between a supposed manly image and the fact that we crossdress)?
- Realizing how my girlfriend was seeing myself, it makes me realize that coming out (I am thinking more and more about telling her), will be extremely shocking and hard for her.
For those whose SOs had the same perception of them (manly dudes) and who finally told their SO about crossdressing, can you tell me how it went ?
Thank you in advance for your feedback.
Karine.