This is more for my benefit than the forum. I will state that right off quick.
When I was in my first year of High School I was proud enough to know someone who I really liked and admired.
At this time I was crossdressing and quite new to all of it and had no clue as to why I was crossdressing.
She was pretty and she was "too good for me". As they would say.
Well the reason I have to say "too good for me" was because she hung with the popular crowd and
was too pretty to be classified in the same category as me.
Well I was just learning what crossdressing was and there were too many rednecks in my school.
So rather than do or say anything I let things go and was her friend.
One day she came over to my house unannounced and sat down on my bed
to spend some time talking to me. She sat extremely close to me. Almost sitting
on my hip sort of. I moved over. (the thought ran through my mind "I'm a crossdresser. I cannot
even if I wanted to date you. You are in a higher class crowd than me.")
I got up to change the record on the record player to try to sit a little further away from her.
She again moved over against me - sort of.
Years later (I think around 35) there are regrets setting in that I want and need to push out of my mind.
The main reason I brought all this up is because - had they known what crossdressing and Transgender is
and had delt with it back then - would have things been different?
Look how far we have come since then? We now have groups for both.
We have a better understanding of what causes some of it.
I have a wonderful SO and a great 10 year old son and yet my thoughts
keep going back to then and what if...............
Has anyone else had any experiences similar to this?
How did you deal with them as far as crossdressing went?