Does this strike a chord with anybody?
Over the last few years, my dressing has gotten more refined and simultaneously the mind has been active trying to understand whether my uniqueness as a CD has a bearing on my interpersonal relationships as a guy.
Let me elaborate, and what better way to do that than with an example. While its fairly easy to get along with people and sustain interpersonal relationships at a superficial level or during the good times only, there are innumerable occassion when I withdraw into a shell. In the state of mind, one tends to distance oneself from all friends, seem aloof and cold and for want of better words, tend to perform the disappearing act on people. Its not something that is done intentionally, but during these times, the only thing that matters is me, my thoughts and of course dressing.
A natural consequence of this is to be considered unreliable and erratic, and sometimes even being told to maintain a public facade while dealing with issues. Over the past few months I've begun to believe that perhaps the double life, so to speak, that I lead, is wrecking havoc on relationships with friends. Of course there is no way of testing this theory as it would mean dressing en femme for a week in public to check if that makes any difference.
I shall stop my ramblings at this point and throw open the topic for discussion. Would love to hear/read your thoughts on the topic.
Love,
Sonia