Crossing a milestone

[MsEva]

Hi friends,
So I am feeling a bit unsettled. Today is the eve of my last working day before I retire. I have mixed emotions to be sure. . It has been an awesome experience. I have been in that position since 2002. I have worked there longer than any school assignment in my career. I have been blessed with fantastic coworkers over the years. The job i a dream. I got to program show for schools and the public these past 20 years and found it fulfilling and gave me a chance to program shows that were amazing for my guests. I sort of looked at it as people coming in to have a great experience under the stars.

Last night I woke up at 1 and had a hard time getting back to sleep. I had a inking that tomorrow there will be some special commemoration for in my honor and I am freaking out a bit. I was hoping that the day would be just a normal Wed. but some pieces have come into place. First I happen to see a message from our dearest friends about parking an weather. That was to my wife but it popped up on the computer. Secondly, my dear wife said do not try packing your stuff on Wed bring it home today. I hope I am wrong but feel tomorrow I will be sort of the spotlight on a ceremony. I am pretty private and this makes me feel a bit uncomfortable. I will get through it ok but it makes me feel anxious. I guess it is not about me but for others sounds a bit weird.

Today I got the opportunity to dress (jeans, black tunic top and my gray hair sheesh) and all I can think about it tomorrow. My lovely, accepting wife, knows of my dressing and allows me girl time. She has been retired these past five years. I am worried that I will loose my identity. After all that is who I am well at least a part of me. Will I be okay? Maybe I am making too much of this. I guess my dressing time will increase, that is sort of a positive.

So for my retirees, has it been okay? Are you holiding up ok? I know first world problems right? Anyway had to vent
Luv
Eva