I have been going through depression on and off over the past few years, and have been on medication for a period, as well as attending therapy.
I'd finally accepted that I am transgender, this isn't a fetish, it's not a kink, it's a legitimate feeling and I have accepted that I've felt this way since I was about 4 years old.
I am however just not feeling anything right now. I actually feel like I did when I was 22-27, and wasn't dressing so much.
I cancelled or returned all of the orders I made in November for clothing, and whilst I still look at the sales, I just think about how ridiculous I look, how stupid it would look if my wife saw me dressed.
This is also coinciding with some sexual performance issues for male me, where I'm also unhappy about how that aspect of life is, and how I look.
I know it'll come back, and the fog will be strong again one day, but it really does feel as though my confidence is shot, and with it my urge to dress has gone away as well.
Human psyche and feelings are weird.