Out. Completely out. Shot I don't even know where I fit in anymore. When I first came to I was all over the top makeup and dressing to the 11's. Hit the dance clubs and support groups. Then as time went by I toned down the makeup and rained in the dressing and found my grove. Little later on I lost the wig and just mostly show off the shaved head. Posted photo in contest on sites like Lane Bryant. Never did win anything. That sucks. But I did it. With glasses I toned the makeup down even more. Really what the point of having your eye make-up on point if nobody can really see it. Began mixing my wardrobe and home and at work. The wife and I will get done up to go to the theatre or a show. Have longish acrylic nails mostly done up in red or teal or green to support the local trams. Mixing in skirts and leggings at work. Dresses would not really work for my job really well so I've stayed away from those. Like I said. I am not even sure where I fit in anymore. Am I trans? not really. Am I a crossdresser? Not really. I am more gender fluid and present anyway I want whenever I want.
I take the attitude. I am happy with myself and I would like you to be my friend but if this is too much for you and you can't cope, then I wish you peace and happiness on your journey.
Have I lost friends over this? Not really over gender fluidity. People do seem to come and go in life but there is always other reasons completely unrelated to this topic. I did lose one friend, or so friend I thought. Turned out she was battling alcohol, she won last I checked. And a controlling wife, whom she's left. But the damage is done.
