Hi all, ok so as some of you may know I fairly recently found out that my boyfriend (Kirsteen) was really into CDing, since the initial discovery and of course my getting over the initial shock we have come on leaps and bounds I feel. last week he deleted all his online contacts that he had been using to engage in online sex with and edited his profile on the site that he uses to reflect his current situation. A few nights ago we experimented a little and tested boundaries, he wore nylons to bed ! Last night he showed me all of his photos that he had of Kirsteen, even the graphic ones and shared all of his clothes and makeup that he has with me, going through his "box" as it were and letting me see everything. He later asked me if I would like to see him dressed in a pair of high heel boots that I liked as well as some stockings and a suspender belt!!! Although it was absolutely nerve racking waiting to see him that way to my surprise I actually thought that he looked quite sexy and so one thing leading to another etc etc we had a great night!!!
So now, after going this extra mile as it were I find myself thinking allot, and I have real concern, I am really concerned that he just hasn't accepted himself, herself! It bothers me that his constant answer to the question of why he dressed is always.."I don't know why!" he even seems to be fairly constantly saying this to me even when I am not asking, it looks sometimes to me as if he is actually searching his own mind his own feelings for the answers?
I am actually thinking that Kirsteen may be somewhat in denial, not really thinking about the actions the dressing etc...He often tells me that it is purely sexual and fantasy driven, that it's the feel of the clothes, the look of the feminine form and of course the "forbidden" or "wrong" element to it that drives him...I am beginning to really believe that there is more to it...But how can I convince him to address this issue when he is dismissive of it ? What could I do to convince him that I actually do accept Kirsteen, he tells me often that it his inability to accept my acceptance that he struggling with ?
Have any other of you GGs ever experienced this ?
Girls, what's your thoughts on this ?
I'de appreciate any input, because frankly I am a little confused at the moment!!!