As you may have read, on Saturday I told my mum about me, she was shocked but said she would try to accept this if not understand. Well yesterday I was away all day but prompted by certain replies to my original thread I decided to go round to see her again today and tell her that I would leave it up to her judgement whether she told people or not as I did not just want to unload my secret on to her.
Anyway, yesterday she went out with my sister (my sister that I have said in the past that is not a very nice person). My mum and sister are very close and talk most things through and she said that she had told her about me when Julie asked her if I was gay, as she could tell there was something upsetting her and her and Paul (her husband) had said for a while now that I had a secret.
Oh, no I thought, she will just laugh at me and ridicule me.Well how wrong was I. So this afternoon Mum, Julie (and later husband Paul) came round to see me and we sat and talked through things openly and honestly for the first time in god knows how long. Julie and Paul were so understanding and have even asked me round for a meal so I can introduce Gemma to them. I really have underestimated the love for me that my family has and I broke down when we were talking as I was so worried and afraid what their reaction would be and I sobbed like a baby.
I just hope my brother who lives in London will be half as understanding when I tell him as he is coming to visit in 2 weeks time and I want to tell him face to face. When I first started dressing again I could not have dreamt that just over a year later I would have told my best friend and my mum who in turn has told my sister. I am so surprised the way she has reacted to this and hopefully this will make us a lot closer in the future. Just my brother to tell then for now before I think about bringing up the subject at work.
A mixed weekend of emotions for me, Saturday was a low point as Grimsby were beaten in the League 2 play-offs and anyone who knows me will know how important GTFC are to me but today has been an amazing day for Gemma as I can now be open and honest with the people who I love and are closest to me.
Gemma xx