I've known ever since I was a little boy that I was different, that inside I was a girl. But for most of that time I surpressed that idea and except for a few incidents when my female persona bubbled to the surface (wearing lipstick, buying my own bra, etc.) I managed to keep my desires a secret, even from myself, and could quickly surpress them again.
A few months ago everything changed. My inner girl broke through again but this time she had a name, Christiane, and this time she is becoming me. This time I want her to stay. Most of all I'm beginning to think of myself as Christiane instead of who I used to be and I don't want to go back. I love being Christiane.
I know I can't keep Christiane a secret from my friends and family for much longer because my need to be her is overwhelming. Is this how the coming out process starts? Am I normal? What happens next?
If you've managed to read this far, thank you.
Love,
Christiane