[SIZE=2][SIZE=4]Hello Darlings
I haven't posted for a long while, and I owe you an explanation.[/SIZE]
[SIZE=4]Simply put, I've fallen in love - more in love than I have ever thought possible, and the result has been astonishing for me. I have found that I want to be one hundred percent male for her, all my gender issues have left me completely. [/SIZE][/SIZE][SIZE=2][SIZE=4]I was completely happy with my life as a crossdresser, until Sandie came along. She triggered something inside me that switched off the desire to be feminine.
I wish I could say that everything is going well, but of course it's not; this is real life, after all. Both of us are dealing with the legacies of our past lives, and Sandie is unable to let down her barriers and give love back to me. So, a lot of the time I am desperately unhappy, I'm up and down like a toilet seat at a crossdresser's party! Sometimes the future starts to look better, and I dare to hope, then she panics and backs away and I plummet to the depths again.[/SIZE]
[SIZE=4]Anyway, my point here is that this has not affected my decision. For me, dressing is a thing of the past. Despite my unhappiness, and the futility of my love, I do not feel any desire to dress, none. Of course, it's early days, and you girls have already been through multiple purges and know far more about them than me, so we will have to wait and see. But, so far, even though times are tough, the desire to dress has not returned.[/SIZE]
[SIZE=4]I must say, though, it's "Goodbye" to my "stuff" but not to my friends. Since this started to happen a couple of months ago, I have popped in here a few times, but have not felt that it would be right for me to get involved in any discussions. However, now that I have my head around things, I hope that you will not mind if I occasionally share my thoughts - after all, you have been my best friends for the last year and a half, I feel as though you are like family, and I may have some useful things to say.
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[SIZE=4]My time with you has been a ball, I have loved every moment of it. You all take care of yourselves.[/SIZE]
[SIZE=4]Love, Natalie[/SIZE]
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