It may not be the right topic for it.. if it isn't, please, place it in the right one..
First I want to say English isn't my language.. weird sentences, wrong words, I hope you can forgive me.
Now my problem. I'm a 18 year old girl, but if you don't know me, you'll think I'm a boy. Most people greet me with "Hello Sir". I'm comfortable with that because I want to be one.
But now I've fallen in love. The girl I love is the sister of my best friend. Lets call her A. We (I, friend and A.) like to go to the pub. We drink, we dance, we talk. The first time I saw A. she thought I was a guy. She danced with me and said (she was a little bit drunk) she wanted to marry me. Later on she came lying next to me on the grass. Head on my chest. It was a great night...
The second time, she discovered I wasn't a guy at all. Her brother told her. She told me she did'nt like girls, "I'm straight". It hurted, because I thought she already knew the first time.
But.. we saw each other a lot after that (we go to that pub at least 4 times a month). But she still dances with me. When I'm sitting on the bench, she sits close to me or.. she sits on my lap when the bench is full. One time I wrapped my arms around her waist, she standing in front of me, her back against my belly. I kissed her on her cheek. And all she did was smile, lying her hands on mine. A few weeks ago I was at her home, it was her birthday, and she keeped on looking at me, turning her head away when I looked back. And by the way, she keeps on telling that she will marry me.
I'm completly in love. But she keeps telling that she is absolutly straight. And I dont understand it. Why does she all of that (dancing, hugging, looking..and so on) when she only loves "real" guys? I don't have the guts to say her that I'm mad about her.... and I don't know whether its all a joke or real...
What do you think? Is she lying about the straight part? Is it all a joke? I want to know..... and I'm to afraid to ask...