Today it occured to me out of the blue. "Why do I crave wearing womens clothes?" I am a man, and I like being a man. I like man stuff. Just as I may enjoy being jennifer in public, I also enjoy being a man in public.
Is this behavior hardwired into my brain when I was in the womb, or is it learned as I experienced life? I have heard some of the theories. But I sometimes wonder why I crave something, that to society, is unacceptable.
Lately, I have been wanting to dress as a woman more and more. And this is frustrating. It appears that I may have to venture out. It is a scary proposition, but it may be for my own good. I say this because the act of going out as Jennifer, may be a release to my frustrations. It is very important to me to get out dressed.
For the first time ever, I faced my self in the mirror while dressed. (When dressed I wear a wig, undies, skirt, blouse, and heels. And an honest assesment of my ability to pass is, with a proper makeup application, and smart clothes that hide my masculine features, I would feel comfortable around other girls.
The time has come that I need to face the facts. I am a crossdresser and I do need to go out. So, if you are from central New Jersey, please e-mail me. I need some other girls help and support.
Jennifer