OK girls I need your advice, I think its going to start to get ugly at my house.
Some of you know that I have not told my wife "J" about Paula yet and I am/was..Im not sure, to tell her after the hollidays that her husband for 16-years has been a crossdresser for 30 years. I have been chicken, should I tell her and "be free" I hope and possibly end the realationship with my wife and mother of my two boys who I love and adore more than anything, including dressing (I think) or keep it a secret. Do I risk what I have for what could be, just to be able to dress around the house and be me and chance loosing everything?
I wonder because of the comments she has been making lately.
"I wish you act like a god***m man and quit shaving you legs, first its your legs and now your chest." :mad: (just the top of it where it shows,)
"I'm not a lesbian you know!" :mad:
"GOOD NIGHT PAULA, :mad: we could of had sex but your leggs are shaven and smooth"
Some days I think I could tell her and she'll understand other days I think she'll say OK-Fine you be that way and I'll find another MAN and toss my nylon covered butt out.
Oh yeah and this too, "You know you are so hard to buy stuff to put in your stocking I almost bought you nylons and nail polish, nail files and your own razors, Im sick and tired of you using all of my stuff you know, my hair gel and hair spray!"
I almost said "I wish you had, I wear a size C" but I didn't.
My wife really gets depressed and miserable around the hollidays and she can act tough and bitchy one minute and sweet and cudly the next. sorry to ramble on. On Friday I was home, the office was closed, I locked my self in the basement to wrap presents, the whole family is up stairs and I got out a nice skirt and heels to wear while a wrapped presents - which I enjoyed BTW .
I was rewsolved to tell her after the holidays were over when she will be feeling better, more herself, but after her comments I don't know what to do, I'm so confused.