adrenalin junkies

[Julie York]

O.k. I'm just being curious. I think this cross dressing thing had an element that hasn't been discussed yet. Well maybe it has but I didn't see the thread.

We're all adrenalin junkies, and for such high strung people it is interesting in itself, to take on such things.

O.k. you nearly have a heart attack at age 8 (or whatever) sneaking a pair of panties from wherever.

You think your head is going to burst from excitement when you 'find' a dress or whatever and try it on.

You buy something and are so scared you think you are going to faint. let alone the excitement of wearing it.

and then that wears off. So you go further and further.

If it isn't scary it isn't exciting.

OOh let's tell the wife!
Let's go out in public!


Hey don't take it too seriously I am just curious. If it stopped being scary would you still enjoy it? I know the forum is split by really genuine ts sentiments and cd enthusiasm so I am just interested in the response.



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[Bernadina]

O.k. I'm just being curious. I think this cross dressing thing had an element that hasn't been discussed yet. Well maybe it has but I didn't see the thread.

We're all adrenalin junkies, and for such high strung people it is interesting in itself, to take on such things.

O.k. you nearly have a heart attack at age 8 (or whatever) sneaking a pair of panties from wherever.

SNIP...

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Yup. I couldn't stand the stress myself either. That's why I left Newcastle.

On a serious note. No. Cding has been low stress for me as my partners have been aware and supportive. I've never snuck anyone elses clothing and my first time out was in the heart of trasnsgendered Vancouver where, quite frankly, no one except me gave a damn.

The only time the adrenalin really got going was when I screwed up my mascara after doing an otherwise perfect makeup job.

[Amelie]

I am on the side of having TS sentiments. I have never had this scary thrill with dressing. I didn't sneak around, borrowing other peoples' clothes. I made or bought my own, like a GG would do. Same goes for buying fem items, the stores are in bussiness to sell these items, they don't care who buys them, the stores just want the money. This is what I think when I shop in the stores, I am the customer, whatever I want to buy, I will buy. I have had no problems buying fem items, it's only in the minds of the CDs, they think the whole world is watching them shop. No one cares what you buy.
Julie, sorry,, I have never had this scary feeling about dressing. I do get scared when I run into a gang of thugs(yobs), but I would also be scared while in male mode.
I sometimes wish that I did get this scared feeling, some CDs here talk about this feeling like it was orgasmic or something.
Amelie

[Donna Louise]

Yup sure do. I Love shopping for girly things. I seem to have a great time buy them. I do seem to remeber getting some sort of rush when I shop

Amelie

Very nice and I do mean very nice avatar. I would ask a question but I'm so shy.

Donna Louise

[Georgette]

Amelie is right on with what she said about the stores selling to who ever and not caring who buys what. Today I went to JCPs and bought some Bras, and panties and the sales clerk was a boy he just looked at me and smiled with his neatly trimmed eyebrows and nice diamond stud earrings so it really doesn't give me much of a rush either.

[LauraB]

I am on the side of having TS sentiments. I have never had this scary thrill with dressing. I didn't sneak around, borrowing other peoples' clothes. I made or bought my own, like a GG would do. Same goes for buying fem items, the stores are in bussiness to sell these items, they don't care who buys them, the stores just want the money. This is what I think when I shop in the stores, I am the customer, whatever I want to buy, I will buy. I have had no problems buying fem items, it's only in the minds of the CDs, they think the whole world is watching them shop. No one cares what you buy.
Julie, sorry,, I have never had this scary feeling about dressing. I do get scared when I run into a gang of thugs(yobs), but I would also be scared while in male mode.
I sometimes wish that I did get this scared feeling, some CDs here talk about this feeling like it was orgasmic or something.
Amelie

I also do not get a thrill from dressing for me being a girl is my natural state.

From reading the various posts from our sisters i get the feeling that many girls here are or rather would be Tgirls if they could. I think your point concerning th econstant need to increase the danger and the thrill probaibly applies to about half or less of the girls here.

It might be good to have a poll about this and see what insights the results bring us

Love
Laura

[KewTnCurvy GG]

it's only in the minds of the CDs, they think the whole world is watching them shop. No one cares what you buy.

I think Amelie is 110% correct. I really REALLY don't think that anyone gives a damn what you buy. I think this fear/paranoia is built up in your minds but is largely about you and nothing about anyone else. I never, ever pay attention to what other's are buying--including men walking around the lingerie department. In the past, I always assumed he was buying something for his wife or SO; now I just think he's shopping for himself (bu dum dum).

hugs
kew

[DonnaT]

O.k. I'm just being curious. I think this cross dressing thing had an element that hasn't been discussed yet. Well maybe it has but I didn't see the thread.

We're all adrenalin junkies, and for such high strung people it is interesting in itself, to take on such things.

O.k. you nearly have a heart attack at age 8 (or whatever) sneaking a pair of panties from wherever.

You think your head is going to burst from excitement when you 'find' a dress or whatever and try it on. . . (snip)

. . . Hey don't take it too seriously I am just curious. If it stopped being scary would you still enjoy it? I know the forum is split by really genuine ts sentiments and cd enthusiasm so I am just interested in the response.

Somewhere in the archives is my "beginnings" post. A copy is here

You'll notice from it that I was an adrenalin junky.

I took quite a while for that to wear off. And even though it has wore off, I still enjoy CDing very much.

[Stephanie Brooks]

The adrenalin may flow, but to me it is most unpleasant. I buy things because I need them and/or want them. When I regularly go out and/or purchase fem items, the adrenalin doesn't flow much as I've become comfortable (again) with what I'm doing; it is natural. I actually try to achieve an internal calm in such circumstances in order to stem the adrenalin flow and to just be myself without being self-conscious.

When it stops being scary, that's when I enjoy it.

[MonaSmith]

O.k. I'm just being curious. I think this cross dressing thing had an element that hasn't been discussed yet. Well maybe it has but I didn't see the thread.

We're all adrenalin junkies, and for such high strung people it is interesting in itself, to take on such things.

O.k. you nearly have a heart attack at age 8 (or whatever) sneaking a pair of panties from wherever.

You think your head is going to burst from excitement when you 'find' a dress or whatever and try it on.

You buy something and are so scared you think you are going to faint. let alone the excitement of wearing it.

and then that wears off. So you go further and further.

If it isn't scary it isn't exciting.

OOh let's tell the wife!
Let's go out in public!


Hey don't take it too seriously I am just curious. If it stopped being scary would you still enjoy it? I know the forum is split by really genuine ts sentiments and cd enthusiasm so I am just interested in the response.

I think that there is a thrill in it, not only the 'getting away with it' thrill but also the 'very happy and excited to be doing it' thrill, I don't know if I'm addicted but it is certainly a nice part of it all. The getting away with it thrill is much less than it was, and disappearing rapidly, but the happy to be dressed thrill is getting stronger, so I guess it all balances itself out.

[Vallari]

Im an adrenaline junkie myself, but I don't prefer this feeling when I'm en femme. I just want to feel natural and at-ease when I'm dressed (wheather it's in my own residence or out in the world somewhere). I used to get an adrenaline rush from dressing, but now that I'm out to most of my friends and family, I no longer have a reason to get scared. Even fem-shopping is a normal routine for me now. The only thing that gets my adrenaline pumping now is being out in public.

[Rikki]

For myself it is not the adrinalin rush that I am after. I have been dreesing for so long, I just enjoy looking nice and fem. I feel better about myself, it is only when I when I dress in drab that I feel bad and don't like myself.

Rikki

[Tristen Cox]

For myslefe it was always like I was getting away with something. Ok I'm a bit rebelious, so that does add to it. Each first time doing this or that, my heart felt like it would jump out of my chest. Air wouldn'y even go in my lungs But once I had done whatever, the tensions died down. I really only have a few things left that I have not done (namely getting out dressed in public), and all those things that gave me such fear and thrill no longer bother me. They are the normal parts of my life now. I have no problems going to a store and asking someone sizes of certain female articals. I did wonder if once this 'rush' as you would call it, went away would I seek out more to keep that going. The answer for me is no. It's all part of who I am now and there's just a couple more steps to go through that are sure to raise my heart into my throat. However I look forward to them. -end of ramble..

Love
Tristen

[Man in tights]

Well, I used to thrive on the thrill of nearly getting caught. But as I'm getting older I'm noticing that I'm getting more laid back and at ease with myself, and more importantly I don't think I really care what anyone thinks anymore. I swear that my body is shrinking (last year I was 5'10" and this year I'm barely 5'9"; and I now comfortably fit a size 9 womens shoe) and I'm starting to really gel with feminine movements. I can definitely live without the adrenaline rush. One thing I don't need is a heart attack (duh). I worry that I'm getting too laid back sometimes but at least I'm no longer constantly scared that someone will catch me out.

[crispy]

the adrenaline rush was certainly part of the thrill in the early days.

First the thrill of raiding Mum's drawers and watching out for the car in the drive.
Then the thrill of brazenly going into a shop and making a purchase.
Then the thrill of dressing at home when my wife was out, and again watching out for the car in the drive.
Then the thrill of wearing things under my work clothes and hoping they didn't show.

But as my alter ego grew up it was less and less the case. Now I just resent the fact that I have to be careful in certain situations so I don't get caught by the family, workmates, etc.

Does that make any sense?

[Man in tights]

There's definitely a growing need to push the envelope more as one gets more daring. It's kinda like drinking coffee, smoking, or heavy drinking... large side-orders of addiction all around I guess!

[racquel]

I can save myself a lot of typing by simply re-stating what Crispy said.
It is what I went through.

[crissy28]

[/the adreniline rush I get from going out dressed late at night and not getting caught is worth it too me.. i guess in a way I wish I would get caught Im sick of hiding it But small town would get alot of greif over it .. Although I told the girl im seeing about my dressing on new years day and for some wierd reason she is really cool with it .. we have only been together about 3 weeks .. she even bought me some panties and a shirt today .. she wants to go shopping with me friday I cant wait... but like I just got back from going to another town about 20 miles away .. while there I washed my vehicle got gas ( paid at the pump ) and parked about 100 ft away from a grocery store and walked over to the front to get a soda .. all the while dressed enfemme .. it feels sooooooo good to do that , I wish I could all the time .. below are some picts of my outfit which I just bought the other day ...

[Julie York]

That was interesting. It seems I am in the minority but not alone! I see Crispy is on the same wave length, or was in the earlier part of her experience. Tristan and Mona too. So maybe I'm just at the steep end of the learning curve and it will slow down.
I don't see myself as TS. Sometimes I think I am a bit of a fraud here amongst people who would love to be women so much. I don't want to be a woman, but I do enjoy pretending to be occasionally. And because clothing was so difficult to come by, it always had an illicit element to it that made it 'dangerous'..

The thing is, I LIKE being so excited my fingers tremble when dressing.

Maybe it's ME who is the adrenalin junky! I'm just a sweet transvestite from Transilvania after all!

[Vickie-CD]

You know it's kind of funny, I have some friends that have never seen me dressed other than a pic, and I have friends that have never seen me out of dress. Funny how things work out sometimes.
Love to All,
Vickie

[crispy]

I don't see myself as TS. Sometimes I think I am a bit of a fraud here amongst people who would love to be women so much. I don't want to be a woman, but I do enjoy pretending to be occasionally. And because clothing was so difficult to come by, it always had an illicit element to it that made it 'dangerous'..

The thing is, I LIKE being so excited my fingers tremble when dressing.

Maybe it's ME who is the adrenalin junky! I'm just a sweet transvestite from Transilvania after all!

Julie, we've had polls on this forum that indicate that there is a significant proportion who are just like you. Me included. I don't want to be a woman. I don't even want to be observed as a woman. I just enjoy dressing, in the closet, for my own pleasure, so I can sometimes feel a bit like a woman. I am the ultimate narcissist.

JulieM made it clear that all shades of CDs are welcome here. No, you're not a fraud, just part of the spectrum. This does not have to be about being TS or even TG. There are other websites that specialise in that. We are all CD, but some of us tend towards TG and TS as well.

Feel right at home here, relax.

take care.

[Julie York]

Thanks Crispy. I know. I am just being a bit dramatic. I fit right in here and I know it.

[MonaSmith]

That was interesting. It seems I am in the minority but not alone! I see Crispy is on the same wave length, or was in the earlier part of her experience. Tristan and Mona too. So maybe I'm just at the steep end of the learning curve and it will slow down.
I don't see myself as TS. Sometimes I think I am a bit of a fraud here amongst people who would love to be women so much. I don't want to be a woman, but I do enjoy pretending to be occasionally. And because clothing was so difficult to come by, it always had an illicit element to it that made it 'dangerous'..

The thing is, I LIKE being so excited my fingers tremble when dressing.

Maybe it's ME who is the adrenalin junky! I'm just a sweet transvestite from Transilvania after all!

Hey there Julie, nothing wrong with being in a minority, even if it is a minority of a minority!
Didn't we have this conversation? YOU ARE NOT A FRAUD! You enjoy dressing in womens clothing, that's all. You are not hurting anyone, so NO GUILT,OKAY?
I don't see myself as TS either, at least not most of the time. I would have dearly loved to have been born with a girls body, but It was not to be. I will modify this one until I am happy but I will never transition, It just isn't something that I see myself doing. Having said that, feelings do change over time, so never say never.

If you like it, keep doing it! life is short, you need to squeeze as much happiness out of it as you can girl. Someone needs to invent a life juicer, so we don't waste any of it.

Hang on in there girl, it can and does get better,

Love you Julie,

Mona xx.

[Nikki A.]

yes there is a thrill initially. But as you get older and more comfortable with yourself and your feelings it becomes more natural almost relaxing. For the first time in a long time I've had the house all to myself and here I sit in hose, bra, panties, slip, a skirt and top and heels typing away. It feels right and I wish I could stay like this all day. No make up or wig. Oh well such is life.

[Sharon]

Personally, I could live without the adrenalin rush. I just want to be able to do what I want, where I want, without giving a second thought about how I look or how I appear to others.
I get so envious of the girls who feel comfortable enough with themselves to be able to do this.
Sigh -- maybe one day....