Well it has now been over 43 days since I started HRT and after the initial bad first couple of weeks now I am feeling a lot btter. The first month I was nauseous all the time. (Now I know what it is like to have morning sickness) I had no real appetite during this period and to make matters worse I could not get more than a couple of hours of sleep every night for almost two weeks. I was at the point of asking myself, I'm I going crazy? It was so bad for a while that I was serously thinking of jumping in front of the northbound Amtrak headed for Los Angeles to end it all. But than things started to change for the better, I stopped taking my blood pressure medication, I think between the Lisinopril and Spirilactone was the reason I could not sleep. Both of them used together for controlling blood pressure could possibly have the opposite effect. I have been monitoring my blood pressure and it is in the normal range dispite not taking the Lisinopril. And now the past two weeks I have been feeling great. I am realizing that now I am the happiest that I have been in a very long time. Because I can actually be myself, the beautiful woman that has been hiding inside this shell of a man is finally free. Its great to finally be able to be myself. I can't really see any physical changes yet, but I know they are happening. Two days ago I noticed how soft my skin has become, not in any specific area but all over. And today at work I bumped onto something with my chest and my left areola actually was sensitive to the touch. And when I got home and changed out of my work clothes I touched both of my areolas with my finger tip and it actually hurt to do it. So I am excited that the early signs of breast developement are happening. So the changes are happening, slowly but surely. My thighs are filling out now too, my legs look more like a girl's legs than a guy's. Soon I will probably be able to toss out the padded briefs and put the breast forms up for bid on Ebay. Now if only I could find myself a date for New Years Eve, I bought my party dress and shoes to match, so I am ready to ring in the New Year. Because I know that 2007 is going to be a great year for me. Until the next update wishing you all well in the coming year.