well let me see here, I'm not sure what made me start dressing, it all just seemd to happen, but wa hard to find time growing up. was something I never understood why I did it I just liked it. but over time I hve started to notice how I feel inside when I do, I feel better about myself, for some reason, it just feels right to me. I can't really describe the feeling any better, I feel prettier too of course. and like alot of others out there I have parents who although I don't live with anymore have never understood or approved of my dressing. They do ask now and then why I do, but I have held back from trying to talk about it as like many others I feel scared, or ashamed, but yet at the same time it is who I am, and know I shouldn't be.
That is what I have been thinking a bit about recently as I often think about how nice it would be to try going full time. I will have to tell my parents as they would be concerned for me as any parent would. outside of being a girl at the moment I like to watch sports and keep up with world events on the news... like to read now and then. like to drive around now and then as well. I like movies as well can't list all the ones I like as there are several. and of course being the girl I am of course. and as you can tell in the pictures I post I'm more conservative, and may dress in clothes that might suit an older woman, but I like them, and have looked at things that would look more age appropriate but haven't liked the color or style, or they don't have anything in the size I need. I'm not sure if any of you have that problem. I hope to try to go see a Psychologist as it is the closest thing to a gender therapist we have here unfortunately, and see where that leads, and if I can tell my parents, I would like to see about trying hormones as well we will see... it is a major decision I know, I fell like I understand the risks and consequences though, and am willing to accept them, so I can hopefully become more the girl that I feel I am.
