Would you do a total transformation?

[Tamera]

If I was younger and knew then what I know now and had the money I would do everything except, for now, change my plumbing, and I'll tell you why.

If you have a part of your body removed, like a leg or arm, there is a pain called "Phantom Pain". I'm afraid I would have this pain if my plumbing was removed.

Maybe after all the changes were made I would think of this last task a little more in depth.

I don't want to seem rude or crude but a doctor once said it was easier to make a hole than make a pole.

[Andrea Nicole]

Michelle,
You have been "dressing" for about 30+ years and haven't been out of the house yet. I really think your are quite a ways from these monumental and PERMANENT changes.
The "passing" aspect should definitely not be your number one objective.
Confidence and presentation are well above passing with regard to objectives.
Take Care,
Andi ....

[Teresa Amina]

But how far? I'm having my beard lasered, I've had an unsightly scar removed from my forehead, and I'm learning the chemistry of all this HRT stuff. The temptation is huge, as are the consequences. After running from myself for decades I've turned about to face Me. I must be dealt with now, and have the freedom to do as I wish. Yet this is itself the danger. To go too far is easy. What you need can be had with or without official blessing, everything that needs monitoring can be done. But only by testing yourself out in the world can you know if it's really for you or not. So I guess my position on this is Kinda-Sorta-Maybe-We'll See

[Andrea_girl]

change my plumbing? not at this moment in time.

Although the thought had crossed my mind.

[MJ]

well changing the plumbing does not make you a woman, you can do everything else and still keep the twig and Berry's, it's how you feel that counts. anyway , and Confidence and presentation are well above passing with regard to objectives. are so true
why would you want to change the plumbing, unless you want to be with men .. and that takes a very long time to decide if it's right for you
i am still not sure myself and i have been on this road a long time
there is a lot of good advice here take it to heart

[viky carr]

I think some of us have the desire to do the complete transformation, implants, hormones ect. but personally i would not do it, i feel good the way i am and i'm glad that i can be her whenever i want to,

[jazmine]

Sometimes I fantasize,I would love to do the whole nine-yards(hormones,implants,ect). But there are so many people in my life that I think it would hurt. I know I shouldn't give a rip what they think, and they should be supportive unconditionally,....but that's not how the world works.I have no problem in remaining in my born gender. Anyways, I like being a guy who loves crossdressing. I look at it as a wonderful gift.......something I really LOVE doing. I'm still trying to work up the courage to to go out as "Jazmine" with my wife to one of the TG friendly places in my area,.........but for some reason,,,,,,,I am SO nervous and scared to. All of you have been such an inspiration to me, that I think I may be able to do it one day soon. I just wish that I knew another CD near me, that my wife and I could tag along with, that has already been to those places and knew people. It would also be nice to know another CD, as to get ready over their house,.... as my relatives live RIGHT next door to me! AW WELL......I'll make it out soon.

[michelleupnorth]

Thanks so much for all the advice. I've just got off the phone with someone who is very supportive of my lifestyle and still wants to be my SO. I think that my first step is going to be to see my family doctor so I can get referred to a specialist for some counselling and take it from there. I will be going out in public as soon as I feel that I'm passable enough. I'm so tired of trying to hide this side of me and I'm glad that the woman in me is coming out (slowly).

I do agree that it's not what is between my legs, it's what is between my ears. That is what is telling me that I am a woman inside. I'm attracted to women and even if I do get the hormones and everything else needed to make me look like a woman in the mirror I'll probably keep my package down there because I can still satisfy my SO whoever that is going to be. I guess you could say that I'm a lesbian.

I look forward to hearing from more of you out there that battle with this and once again thanks for making this site a home for me.

[Glenda58]

Michelle before you go do the hormones go out dressed for a week to see how it feels. Then a month and don't wear any male clothing. because that's what's going to be like. See your family dressed because once you change you can't go back. I like both worlds so I won't do hormones again. And I do go out for days at a time.

[joanlynn28]

It is all the way or nothing, to do anything less would leave me incomplete. I have been on the path for a very long time 35 years plus, just did not have the courage to do anything about it until I hit my forties but this is something I suspected about myself for most of my life. I am just happy know that I am able to leave as my real self from now on. Been on HRT for three months and running and SRS is in my plan 2-3 years in the future, by than I will be near retirement eliglibility and will take whatever my path leads me to in that point in time.

[michelleupnorth]

Joanlynn 28 your words are such an inspiration to me. I'm still scared but would love to talk more with you about our challanges and what to expect.

[ToyGirl]

yes wouldn't have it any other way.

[Lisa Golightly]

I'm more concerned about being me than I am about emulating a gender stereotype.

Right on the nail badger girl

[PaulaJaneThomas]

Right on the nail badger girl

I had an inkling you might agree Lisa

[JenniferR771]

Dr Renee Richards well-publicized transexual (and professional tennis player in both the men's and women's curcuit) from the 1960's has a new book out, "Second Serve".
A respected eye-doctor.
In her 70's now, seems she is not so sure the SRS was a good idea.
I think she has a book interview on NPR public radio today--but I couldn't find the exact time or show.
Amazon link:
http://www.amazon.com/Second-Serve-R.../dp/0812880757

[susie evans]

this is a very serious question for me i will stay as i am the way i see it i'am extremely fortunate to have the best of both worlds and don't think it would make me any happier in life

susie

[Samantha Lough]

I would and in fact I am trying to work toward that.....

[Ranee Daze]

It is a giant leap from closet dressing to GRS (Gender reassignment surgery) and I wouldn't cionsider it so lightly. I have a friend here who went all the way, and was shunned by his family, children, friends, lovers....
All this to say that there is more on this plate to consider. Here in Canada there is a reason they insist on psychiactric sessions before they cut you with the scalpel.
For me, I don't need HRT and sur-ger-y to feel like me as a she. I just need a good block of time, a break in the finances and Ranee is out shopping and visiting salons. Then I can come home, shower off and store the trappings and enjoy the other of my wonderful lives. Going all the way would trap me in the femme mode....what a bore!

[michelleupnorth]

So I've decided to come out and do the transformation. I've told three of my girlfriends and all three were very supportive of my decission. I will begin my transition slowly and I'm seeing my Dr on the 27th to get reffered to a specialist. As you can see from my pic I will be doing surgery of some sort (look at that apple in my throat, lol) and whatever else is going to be required to get me to the end result that I want. I thank all of you who are supportive of my decision and for those that are not I welcome your thoughts as well.

The picture of me is wiyhout any make-up and it shows. I'll be posting a picture in the future with make-up and something sexy on.

I love all of you.
Michelle

[michelleupnorth]

noticed that my pic didn't load how do I do that now. Confused like the body I'm in

[Courtneygurl]

Don't be too sure about your sexual orientation post-transition. It's only natural, with T still poisoning our bodies, to assume we'll still be attracted to women. Estrogen has it's own effects, and many girls out there have been (pleasantly) surprised that they now find men attractive. Who would've thought?

[Penny]

The only reason to be a woman would be to be able to wear woman's clothing, smell like a woman and wear makeup with longer hair plus tossing in jewelry. Sorry, but that's not good enough for me. I would have to assume the role and that would require years of psychotherapy with the end result having to live in a man's world. Woman still face discrimination.
I do go out in public enfem. For the most part, I dress however I feel. I do appear approriately to my true gender when necessary or when I want. I don't visit a therapist now and don't wish to create a reason to see one.

[eleventhdr]

I would change my sex IE gender givien the rela chance to do so also would like to, be much much younger once again.

But you know money is the stil the ket\y here oh oh i wish someone would also come along that would give us girls a real chance to be who and what we do deisere to be.

OH well

maybe someday this will happen just hope i am still around when it ever doeI would want t way to change once and for all to female without al of the hassel of sugurey and all of the stuff about couseling and wating and wating to become what i am inside female.

Oh well
you know what they say good stuff maybe happens to those who wait well i ma wating and waiting..
Here i am plaese come along and help us all who evcer is out there that ever can do so we are all wating.

Thank's Suzy!

[michelleupnorth]

Hi Suzy, I plan on keeping my job in the military so that I can afford the funds required to finally fix what has been broke for so long. The pain and money are such a small price for me to pay and it's secondary to me.

[SANDRA MICHELLE]

Not this girl. i do wish to have fuller and larger breast and would have implants if I could get away with it or if I was totally out to everyone. I love my time as a woman and hope for more oppurtunities as they present