Good luck in your endeavor to start anew. I'm not sure I could give this up. Maybe, when it comes right down to it, I just wouldn't make the same decision as you. A crossdresser's life is indeed a life filled with struggle--but all the same, I'm not sure I'd know how to act without this in my life. Honestly, I'm not sure I'd want to live without this in my life...In any event, though, I wish you all the best. I can tell you've put much thought into it, and I hope everything works out as you have planned.