I now have an 18g sterling silver ring with a small hematite ball on each ear (small things). I asked for studs (at three different places all of which I had researched, tattoo/piercing parlors, I mean) but none had them so at the third place I just went ahead with the rings instead. They're only as big around as maybe a dime.
I'm going to a wedding in seven weeks, but if my body works right I might be able to take them out by then just for a couple of hours. If not (and if it's going to cause a sh**fit), then I'll consider not going to the wedding. If I have to give up who I am just to go, then why would I go? A real friend would not ask that of you (as long as you're otherwise nicely dressed and of course I will be).
I'm proud of me. I felt so nervous getting done (meaning facing the parents afterwards, not the procedure itself) that I almost didn't, but I am glad I did. Even from this first day I've gotten a good glimpse of just how much I do give in when my parents don't like something (and this was part of the reason for doing this, one of the things I'm testing, including how deep my connection is to my femininity and also what my feelings are about my body).
Now I know I'm just going to have to conquer that if I'm going to able to really explore myself and become who I really am. If I don't I'm never going to be a viable human being.
Why couldn't I have figured this out before age 35? lol Oh well, better late than never. I'm just glad to see myself growing and becoming bolder.
I'm going downstairs now to get myself a drink. Let the fireworks begin. lol Wish me luck!
Hugs,
Lisa