[SIZE="3"]Hi! I'm new here. Don't no where 2 begin...
Ever since I was very young boy (maybe 9/10), I was stealing my mother's panties (she has very nice taste...sheer, lacey & all those sexy). I get so aroused when I wear them, and u no what happens next (not that it's disgusting but I never gave them back).
My dilema is I don't no where 2 place myself, even as I am 40 yrs.old now. This is my very first let out and it's nerve racking & very embarassing. Please bare with me.
I feel like all these r just 4 my sexual satisfactions only. But I can't help it! I just lovvve 2 wear lingeries & sexy clothes then satisfy myself. A few years ago I took a very bold move by starting going out 2 public. And ofcourse got all da attentions not 2 mention being mistaken 4 being a woman, w/c only fuels my desires 2 take more steps. So I started having sexual encounters (protected & only 4x as I'm also scared) to w/c I was so happy that somebody would accept & treat me as a woman. Then I stop there 4 the fear of da unknown of what might have happened. And luckily none at all, thank god.
Yet still I can't find a word 2 describe myself. Am I gay? xdresser? tv? or something else.
If I have my way (by myself w/o having any family what so ever at all) I would go all the way as a woman 4 da rest of my life. But my reason 4 being is in big ? 'coz I think I already no da answer w/c is "sexual gratification".
R there anybody like me out there? Could somebody help me find myself?...... Thanx[/SIZE]