OK first off the GG'S that are supportive god love yar ...... and your so's should truly realize how lucky they are ..... this is going to be long ...
hello my name is Wendy well half of me is Wendy and lets just call the other half "HIM".... Wendy and "HIM" are married to "HIM'S" wife they lover HER to death .... but something has been going on there's some one dyeing here it's Wendy ..... our wife knows "HE" dresses up in womens clothes ..... and doesn't want to know ....
she doesn't want to talk abought it she thinks it's sick .... she dose not know Wendy and probably never would care to ....
OK we have been together for over 25 years with good times and some bad but we stuck it out this long even though a few times it would have been way too easy to just quit.....
now just to bring you up to speed ... i love my wife with all my heart and over the years made some lets just say tough compromises in my life with out even thinking to please her no regrets ....
still with me ???? here's we twist some .....
abought 6 weeks ago things changed big time .... with out getting into a big poor me thingy ( gawd i hate that) i had a med disaster lol lets say abought 15 feet from being totally done lol ... been on the edge before .... but this was the closest ever ... doesn't scare me .... some times thought it would not be a bad thing...
OK still here???
now i got these stupid doctors and tests BS total BS .... but i can't drive .... lol cops won't let me doctors won't let me .... even my connection at the registry won't let me .... i can't go any were .... cool i love my home and yard .... home with my dog and his pet cat is OK ....
OK now the big thing is i like to shop lol who in their right mind don't ??? lol .... but i got to ask my wife to bring me any were i need to go this sucks big time ...... i know she gets tired after working and she has to run for her mom ... i understand i truly do ...
OK selfish me ???? i don't relay think so .... and i might be wrong i still try to make her happy to do things nice for her .... and i don't try to push this other side of me on her ...... but something needs to move something needs to change .... the only three things i bought for our other side (Wendy waves .... this is a story abought Wendy) is some hair care things and a little fem deodorant and some fem shaving gel... and those little things were met with them dreaded sighs and eye rolls......
oh god give me strength i been good i have tried to talk to her but she will not listen ........ were we are as i feel Wendy grasping for air ... a part of me is dyeing .... slipping away .... and my wife either dose not want to know or is totally clue less.... but out side of just screaming god dammit we need you to understand me .... your killing me here .... (that would probably upset her lol .... OK it would...) so respect her feelings and crush mine ..... sucky choose .....
omg i can't believe i still typing this never mind you still reading it......
so this is not abought any one being right or wrong .... being selfish this is abought some one gets hurt ... and a tough place to be ... it's easy i have to do the right thing .... i have to .... once again Wendy dies a little more ... crawls in deeper in that dark pit ...... sad part is my wife has no clue ..... or dose she?????...........
see people might say selfish CD that his a twisted little side of them ... a fetish or what ever you might wish to call it .... call it as you care .... names and labels are so school yard .... it's not me ..... i could be "T" this or "T" that don't care abought that .... what i do know is their are two people struggling to live in here .... and one of them has to suck it up no matter how hard it hurts to make the wife safe from hurting or crossing her comfy zone....
lol 15 more feet and it would not matter lol .... good luck ??? or bad ??? lol .... thanks to reading my rant / vent ..... lol one day soon this will be back to as it's old don't ask don't tell ways ..... and the question is is any one better off that way??? or do we just get by ???? 15 lousy feet lol.... i could have quit this cding....
latter ......