This was the third time my SO has seen me dressed, and last night it was at her suggestion! However some how since I’ve shown myself to her I’ve become less confident about my appearance and any ability to pass! I know passing doesn’t matter to everyone but it does to me so bear with me. I’ve been out a few times and think I’ve got away with it but now when I see her looking at me I feel more self conscious, less assured and its making me doubt. Do you think it’s just because she see’s me as her man in a dress or that I see myself as her man in a dress or what? Maybe I’m just as uncomfortable with this new freedom as she is? I thought all I wanted from her was to give me leave to dress in front of her but somehow it seems I still need more: self, self, self I know! I think I want her to encourage me, sort of bolster my confidence or something, to tell me I look fab! Perhaps I’m looking for something that will take a little while to come about, but I no longer feel like a princess more of an old trout. Am I just being a complete arse?
Yours (not being thankful for what she’s got) Amanda