I'm not out to anyone, I've followed the characteristic pattern of denial and my wonderful SO doesn't know. We've recently had a fabulous baby daughter,I'd just about got up the courage to come out to my SO when she got pregnant and I still want to tell her. I don't want to keep anything from her and it feels like an ever increasing betrayal to keep it from her. But I'm struggling to see how CDing can be reconsiled with our new life. I know many of you are parents, how does it work for you? I guess a daughter might be less threatened by the idea than a son, but it's hardly going to be her ideal image of a father figure! If children grow-up with CDing around then they would presumably accept it, better than a shock later, but then there's the issue of school friends.. and foes.
My ideal would be my life now but with my femininity included, if I'd only realised it was OK when I was single I think I would be there now, my SO is a wonderful person and I think she would still have gone out with me. But now it's a confession rather than an interesting fact and she won't be able leave it all behind if she can't cope once the "knowledge" is out there because we have a child.
I don't feel guilty that I am TG, or that it's a negative thing, I know it can work, and work very well, in families because it does. I'm worried about "moving the goal posts" for my SO when we are already so connected.
My heart aches to be feminine, I just want to be my full self, but I love them both so much I don't want to hurt them and I'll choose them over any other life.
Modesty
Appologies to the mods if this duplicates itself the first posting seemed to crash.