Except that I keep mine more or less under wraps. Paul may not hide his (whatever it is), but I do for the most part.Originally Posted by Paul McCartney
My monkey.
Mine is crossdressing. I've been doing it so long, it seems more like "normal dressing". I don't dress up every day, but I think about it every day. It's like an addiction. I hear that it's wrong, but I do it anyway. It costs me money, but I do it anyway. It's detrimental, sometimes, in that I crossdress rather than get things done that are on my "to do" list. So it eats up my time that may well be spent doing other things. I'm drawn to it in a way such that it feels like I have to do it. It's like I have little choice in the matter.
But it makes me feel whole, in a sort of hollow way. I feel fulfilled when I do it, but the hunger just returns. It's my heroin. It's my jones.
It's my monkey.
PS: "Originally posted by....?" Oh, well. Maybe he didn't post it here.
. That's what came out as the worse thing my wife felt about my x-dressing. Untill she told me, following a severe crisis over my x-dressing, she said to me "It is less the fact that you x-dress that is really a problem. It is the fact that you do nothing else... You spend your time on various forums, you think about it all the time... We can't do anything because I see you are so immersed into it... I can't stand it anymore"...
