This started out to be a post for "Sales Associate" when I realized that perhaps what I was going to say could become another topic of conversation. I feel so much more comfortable with women sales associates that I asked myself why and what I have come to the conclusion that when dealing with men, I feel as though they might be thinking that I am "gay". I sincerely do not have any anti-feelings about anyone who is gay but do you somehow put an asterick* next to your crossdressing handle? I had an acquaintance in MCDC who once told me that before visiting his physician he told him, "I'm a heterosexual crossdresser, do you have a problem with that?" As a result of hearing this, I too, began proclaiming my heterosexuality to my sisters in the organization and was answered "me too!" As I become more confident with myself as Annie, I don't really care what anyone may think.
As I become braver in my adventures out of my house, I no longer feel being labeled gay but the denial is still there in the back of my mind. If I purchase my clothing from a male sales associate my thought is that they think that dressed as a woman that I just might be gay and that thought makes me somewhat uncomfortable. When I purchase from a woman, I do not consciously feel that they have any thoughts about my sexuality.
I think that many of us have gone past these feelings and I am just beginning to get past them myself. Once I get past all the barriers of feelings of guilt and inferiority, then I will be ready to venture out as I please, dressed any way I please.
What do you think?