Ok i need to ask this as stupid as it sounds!!
What is the secret to going out?
I keep getting myself ready to go out for my first time but just can,t manage to leave the house. I plan what i,m going to wear so that i don,t attract unwanted attention, i spend ages getting my makeup "just so". I,ve been practising how i walk and developing feminine mannerisms and i spend ages trying to convince myself i look ok.
I plan where i,m going to go and how i should react if people look at me.
Even a walk around the block seems impossible to manage, i just get to my front door and "freeze"!!
I,m sorry to have to ask this as i feel really stupid about it, but i really want to try going out!!
Plenty of others manage it, why can,t i?
I even tried a bit of "dutch courage", but by the time i was confident enough i could barely walk!!
Should i just accept i,ll never manage it and just give up!!
