Inspired by a thread by Cleo Lane (royalties due) in the TS section.
Would you have chosen this for yourself?
What do you think you've learned by being in such a contradictory position?
For my part I have realised that you have a choice over your actions, but that your brain chemistry is pretty much hard wired when it comes to desire based on gender stuff. You're stuck with it and have to deal with it the best way you can.
Thank god I have an urge that isn't harmful to anyone and mostly not illegal.