Originally Posted by
Jodeebrit
Thanks for the welcome girlies, so Im not sure why im back to be honest,im not crossdressing, havnt been for years,
I guess its weighing on my mind, Ive told my New girl friend,of my past, I guess weve been going together for about a month, and shes ok, about it in my past, but has said shes not interested in it, in our future together,
I think thats fine, but I obviously have had some concerns/thoughts about it, but know I cant push her, at this early stage in our relationship, it has been kinda a whirlwind affair too, we've already talked about living together, and we both want kids, I guess I have a fear of my crossdressing will smash it all up, if I dont keep a tight hold of my crossdressing hunger.
my days of going out, and crossdressing seriously, I believe is over, for example, Im a big hairy bloke, 6'3" and about 300lbs and shavin/waxing hair makeup, nails etc, I think im too old and too fat, to look at all nice now, so I guess, that part is over. but I guess for me it was always a social thing for me, crossdressing to the hilt.
crossdressing partly, or dressing in lingerie, for mastabation, wasnt something I want, or ever did maybe when I was a child, not that there is anythig wrong with that at all.
I guess im confused about these urges revealing them selves again, and the fact they could put my new relationship at jeopardy.
I guess im using this forum as a way of confession, cause im also dealing with enormous guilt, just thinking about crossdressing again, after not cding for 6 or more years.