I have been asking myself that question a lot as of recent. Why couldn't I have been all male, or all female? Being in the middle has caused a lot of problems. I guess life would be better if the world was accepting of CD's. For those of you that are from Ohio, I was at Cedar Point (an amusement park for those that want to know what it is). I was standing in like waiting for a ride, and like usual, I glance around and maybe study a person or two. There were people of the same sex holding hands, guys with their girls, girls talking girly things among themselves, guys with their buddies trying to come up with a story than the previous one told, and girls with their man being all clingy. When I see that stuff, it feels like I am on the outside looking in. What I wouldn't do to be in any one pair of those shoes. Preferably, I'd like to have been in a pair of any woman's shoes, but in this current life, it's back and forth between men and woman's shoes. I would like to know why this is the type of life I have.
I tried to do some research on line, but most of the time I came across articles from "professionals" that say crossdressing is an addiction. I recall being 6 or 7 wanting to wear my sister's clothes and began wondering what it would be like to be a little girl. How is that an addiction at that age?
Not matter how many times I end up fighting a war in the mirror, I know that being a crossdresser is a part of my life. I am fortunate to be with a GG that knows what I do and accepts it. We have been together for 3 years now. Her only fear is that I would want to be a women full time. I understand why she feels that way. There is times I feel that being a crossdresser does get it in the way of us growing together, but it is a part of my life. It all ways has been and always will be. However, the question that will always remain is why was I given this type of life? Being either all male or all female would make my life seem like I had a purpose. Anyone else feel the same way?
Oh, yea, I just bought that top in my avatar. I wish I could buy everything else and look like that in the top!