Ok, so I've been CD'ing for ever, at least for 80% of my life and I'm 39 now. I try and try and try to sort of let this side of me go. But it just comes back and it makes me feel good and I like it and I don't want to ignore it...Sounds like I'm not trying hard I know, but there is a difference between how CD'ing makes me feel and how hard I've tried to not do this - why? Family's sake. Thats it in a nutshell. I've never purged because I knew it would only cost me $$$. And perhaps that's part of it, have not burned the bridges I guess, but heck, why when it seems like cindy loves to come out and play.
Oh well, just venting I guess. To embrace or not to embrace, that poor Yorick is the question (not sure of spelling or exact nature of that quote so all apologies to Shakespeare)!
Cin