My marriage has been on the skids for the longest time (well before my admission/confession/spilling the beans about CDing). The question is how to know when you're really done. I am happiest when she's away, and walking on eggshells andfull of dispair and dread when she's around. I have totally withdrawn emotionally, but the daily insults hurt. Being told that I should be ashamed of myself, that I have real problems, etc. This usually happens in front of my child, or on the phone at work, so I feel powerless to fire back. I know for sure that if I leave, she'll out me to my friends and family. However, I am begining to care less and less about that fact. I am by no means an innocent bystander, but I DO feel like I am the sane one here.
Totally sad,
Jill