As an almost lifelong crossdresser (I began about age 12), one of the most difficult hurdles I have faced in learning self-acceptance has been the possible correlation between crossdressing and a number of other things. The obvious false conclusions drawn by much of the public are that we must be either gay or want to become women. While this is the case for some, it is not for a majority of crossdressers. While I did not feel that either of these applied to myself, nonetheless, it created doubts and confusion in my mind during my teen years.
As I gained confidence in who I was in terms of my sexuality and gender, other considerations began to cloud my perception and inhibit my enjoyment of my crossdressing nature. These included things like sexism, harrassment, exhibitionism and perversion. By crossdressing, was I guilty of such things. Let me explain:
Men dress primarily for comfort and practicality. While this is also true to a large extent for women, there is also a much greater degree of sexuality involved in female clothing. High heels, makeup, cleavage, and other provocative elements are all designed to improve the sexual attraction of the female. By copying these fashions, are we becomming overly consumed with the sexual portrayal of the female, and thus guilty of a form of sexism?
When we wear such fashions openly, and around women, is there an element of harrassment, because of the sexual nature of what we are wearing. A simple joke or comment about appearance can be misinterpreted in this day and age. What about assuming the figure, (particularly the breasts) and provocative attire of the female, when we are obviously male?
Exhibitionism is not considered acceptable by society and when it involves elements of sex, nudity etc. is considered a criminal offence. Are we a sort of exhibitionist when we portray the female in such a manner?
There are many definitions of perversion including this from Webster: "any of several sexual practices that are regarded as abnormal" Considering the fact that there is a sexual component involved (dressing as the opposite sex) and that it is not the "norm" in our society, is there an element of perversion?
I ask these questions, not because I believe that these situations apply to any of us, but that the perception of them being the case probably has a lot to do with society's reluctance to accept us for who we are. When I read this and other forums, I often get the feeling that because we have been able to accept and understand ourselves, we have lost sight of the way others might see us, given their upbringing and their own personal feelings. When we say "it's their problem and not ours", or "you get to know who your real friends are", and insist on our right to crossdress whenever and wherever we choose, we may be satisfying our own needs, but are we promoting understanding and acceptance. Only by facing up to the "reasons" and eliminating them from the public's mind through education can that be achieved.
What are your thoughts?
Sorry for the length
Veronica