Hi,
I am a new member here. I have been reading messages out here and I must take my hat off to the courage that all of you have been showing to be yourself regardless of how the rest of the world treats you.
Do you find yourself being reserved with your friends to the extent that you push them away?
As a male, I have had a lot of friends I met through school and work. We had a lot of common interests and aspirations. I enjoyed spending time with them and being there for them when they needed me. However, I have had my crossdressing/transgender secret since very early childhood. I had girly stuff in my room and in my closet. Although my friends wanted to get closer,
I did not let them. I was afraid they would find out.
I did not want to lose them, but at the same time I was not letting them get too close.
Now I live most of my life, except at work, as a girl. Because I am not out at work, I do not go to places where my colleagues from work might see me as a girl. I still make friends, but I have very little in common with these friends. I can let them get closer to me as friends because they already know that I am transgender, but I am not sure how long these friendships would last, given our differences.
So I am afraid to let these new friends get closer too.
Have you been in such a situation? Have you been pushing away your friends as a result of your crossdressing?
M2