an age old adage and problem for us I'm sure .... I'm an infrequent visitor here.I am recently and quite regularly bothered by my ambiguity re crossdressing .... I enjoy it and realise I am stuck with it - I know it's not going to go away and that I must make the best of it ( and during self confident times - rejoice in it ) but and we all know thAT WORD ....BUT....... I am increasingly looking like a fat man - I take solace in the bottle- I am getting too old to fool even myself of my beauty - I fear that my old age will be filled with regret and depression and that I would be clearly within my rights to end it sooner rather than later as i have attempted halfheartedly in the past to relieve myself of the pain we must sometimes feel... a little encouragement wouldnt go amiss xxxxxxxx