I grew up with two older sisters and I knew from the start that I wanted to be like them.
But there was a girl who lived next door who was about the same age as my oldest sister, maybe a year or two older. So, when I was 10, she would have been 19 or 20.
I remember thinking how she was the most georgeous creature I had ever seen. She was blonde with a perfect face and body. Since we lived right next door, I would see her lying out tanning herself. I remember thinking that if I could look like anyone else, it would be her.
I used to sit on the porch swing with her mother, who was a great friend of mine as a kid. I would see her entertaining and leaving with a constant parade of hot guys who were always coming to see her. She wore short shorts and revealing tank tops and was quite busty! I was really envious.
That was also the time when I was not sure whether I was gay or not. I did not know what gay meant. What I did know was that I wanted to be girlie and I found guys to be attractive as well as the girls. I had crushes on some of the guys who came to see her.
There were several girls and older women too who influenced me as a kid, but this one girl really stood out.
What about you?