I can't help but think that wanting to CD, and do fem things is some sort of selfish addiction/OCD type behavior.
I want it so bad sometimes,be a women and feel i need to do it, that it causes anxiety for me when i can't. But then another part is telling me that I need to stay grounded in reality and stop thinking so much about my self, but rather how my selfish actions effects the people close to me.(mainly me SO) I
I found out that I'm gonna be a dad soon, and feel that I have a role and responsibility as a man to be strong and stable for the child. How can I be this person when i'm not even happy with who i am??
sorry im just ranting and probably all over the place. how do i find a balance in all of this??
