I'm going to have dinner with my (gg) friend today. She's my best friend, and she's concerned because I've been distant and depressed lately. I wish I could tell her that it's because I'm coming to terms with my cross dressing and sexuality, but I don't want to come out to her until I know I can deal with it if she doesn't want to be friends any more.
I can't really gauge her reaction. She does not like sexual deviance in any form. But she has stayed my friend from when I went to a Pentacostal church, got divorced, shacked up with someone else, and came out as pagan. So there's a track record of her sticking by me, even though I imagine she condemns just about everything I do in the abstract.
I hate not being honest with her, but I don't have many friends and I'm too scared to lose her to be honest right now.
Katie (Kat)
