I crossdressed as a kid up to about 16 years old. Never did it again until 28 years later. Now it's 4 years since I started again. Yes, there was guilt and "what the hell am I doing" for the first 3.5 years back doing it but I've found peace in myself with it now. My wife knows and although not totally supportive she's aware I can't help it and let's me get on with it in my own way.